I think that I am addicted to the computer.
I am addicted to procrastination.
I have some kind of deep rooted self destructive anger.
I feel toxic.
Not just in my thought patterns but in the world around me... which of course all go together. SO much going on in the news and everything.
I wonder if it has always been like this and I just didn't really give a shit when I was younger or am I just becoming more and more aware of it?
I think it has a lot to do with the fact that news is so immediate these days. I can check every second to see the very very latest news report.
It's overwhelming me.
But I am not so overwhelmed that I am not aware of it and am going to do something about it.
Here is the deal. I have always been sensitive to stuff. I have always been able to sense weird energy in situations, people, etc. I know that most people can sense this but I guess I have a problem processing it.
So add on top of that the bombardment of media, the bombardment of cel phones and the weird energy of living in a big city.
The bombardment of all the chemicals we are ingesting into our bodies.
I am going organic by the way and I am getting rid of ALL products and things that have ANY kind of additives and I don't just mean food, I mean soap too.
I am all over the place here.
I am just beginning to de-tox in fact I am doing a de-tox herb program as I type.
It's comin' out my fingers!
Kidding.
I think.