It's been a long long time...

I don't regularly blog because I have so much going on that it's hard for me to narrow down ONE thing to talk about or write about. It's hard to be the stenographer for all the stuff going on in my head. But writing can be a zen like experience. I have done the morning pages routine in which you write three pages full of mind dump. It's theraputic. It seems like it will take forever to do. You have to just write from your train of thought. It is definitely something you KEEP to yourself. But it empties out a lot of the noise up there.
I have a lot of noise. I hide behind the noise. The noise can sometimes get in my way and I let it. Even now as I am typing this there is an inner critic sitting there laughing and saying, “what are you doing? Do you really think anyone cares to read this crap?” and I have to nod and say, “thank you... but shut up ok?”
PROJECTS - O - RAMA!
I have one zillion projects going on. That is the official count. Well, it FEELS like one zillion only because it's a gigantic wall of projects all glued and stuck together like some third grade art project hanging in the hallway. Looking at it en masse it looks like a gigantic mess making absolutely no sense at all. So because I wear the glasses that perceive this, it remains just that.